HHhhhmmmm

So... Guess I am not posting here anymore. :( I suck. Just for the record. In case you were wondering. Such is life.

Frustrated

I got a new treadmill yesterday!
I am excited about that, now I can run from my nice warm house!

I am however feeling very frustrated about my running on schedule situation. For some reason, I can't seem to get through week 4. I did day one last week, and I thought I did fine. Then, I didn't run for a few days, and then tried day 2, later in the week, and COULDN'T finish running, I ended up just walking the last 1/2 mile, because my legs were cramping up so bad, and I was beat.
So, I took a few days off, and tried to stretch a bunch, and decided to start over with day one today. I ended up walking the last 1/4 mile today. I feel like I could just cry. It isn't fun anymore, when I just end up feeling bad about my progress.

I am really unsure what to do, maybe just keep doing the week 4 plan until it is easier.

Any advise from anyone who knows anything about it? By the end of next week, I am supposed to be running a full 2 miles without walking, and right now it is taking all I have to run 1/2 mile twice in one work-out. YIKES! What to do, What to do.

I really am surprised that I am struggling so hard. I have worked my way up slowly, and I just can't seem to get passed this point.

So, then I ask myself... Am I going to be ABLE to run a 5K in MAY?

Sorry about being a downer. I just want to document my thoughts and feeling in my journey, hoping that some day I will look back and laugh at how out of shape I WAS!

Road Runner

I attempted to run outside today. I learned a few things.
#1. I am still WAY out of shape. But I am getting there.
#2. Road running is WAY harder than running on the treadmill.
#3. It is still WAY freakin' cold outside.
#4. Cold air hurts inside your lungs.
#5. It feels good to have my body moving!

Week 4

Yep! I did it! Week 4 day 1. It was challenging, but good. I was scared of this week, but it was good. Man, I am on the treadmill today, and it being Sunday, there is nothing good on T.V., so I just cranked up my iPod and went for it. And, while I was running, listening to my iPod and staring at the snow falling down outside of the gym window, I am daydreaming of running that 5K, and even a 1/2 marathon. I was imagining what it would feel like to cross the finish line of a 1/2 marathon. And, I want it. And, the only thing that can stop me is me, right? So, I think that I am going to train for this 5K, and I am going to DO IT. And, slowly I am going to keep moving forward, and I am going to do a 1/2 marathon. Not this year, maybe not even next year, but eventually, I HAVE to do it.
But for now... I am going to focus on being ready for the Eugene 5K, in May and Bloomsday 1n May 2009, and hopefully some other races along the way! Because... I CAN!

Oh' So I CAN do this?

O.K. Feeling back on track. Finished up week 3 today. I felt stronger than I have felt all week. I seriously was planning on doing week three over again, because the first 2 days about killed me, but tonight I am feeling better, and can I just say... I rocked it!
I guess my being sicker than sick was holding me back. Very thankful for that, because I was getting scared that I wasn't going to be able to make it.
Anyway... It felt awesome!

Very, Very excited, again!

Bring on Week 4, cause I CAN DO IT!

Week Three - Day Three - DONE!

Week Three, Day TWO

I did it. Not as well as I was hoping for, but I did it none the less.
Going to shoot for day three tomorrow, if I am feeling O.K.
Feeling the need to wrap up this week. And move on.
I like to start my work-out week on Sunday. It feels good to
kick the week off with a good sweaty work-out, plus I feel less
pressure, because I have the rest of the week to fit in two more runs.
It works for me. I have been shooting for Sunday, Tuesday and
Thursday, so I would like to stay on schedule, so everything
doesn't begin to unravel. So... Movin' On. Looking forward,
but not as far forward as my friend, http://kristie-endurance.blogspot.com/.
Who has me laughing because as we are working to wrap our third
week of running, ever, she is looking for future training plans, for
after we run our 5K in Eugene. Love Her!

I am wishing that I knew of a place where I could read peoples
stories. People who started out like me. And have made it.
People who felt like running a mile was HUGE, and have made it
past that. I need some inspiration. So, if you know of a place,
where I can read about other peoples journey's... Will ya let me know?

O.K. So, Week 3, Day 2: DONE!

Bummed

I have been sicker than H E DOUBLE HOCKEY STICKS, for three days now.
I started out with a bad head cold and sore throught, then later that night ended up with the pukey kind-of flu. Seriously it has been quite awhile since I have felt half this sick. And, the worst part... I am stressed out because now I am behind on my training schedule. (I do feel so official calling it my "training" schedule) :) Anyway... Remember that Sunday, I felt like I was going to collapse by the end, and that was my last day.
I am WAY anal. WAY. Like, now I feel like I blew the whole dang thing. Tomorrow is only Thursday, so I suppose I could still fit in two more workouts by Saturday, but I can't even imagine what it would do my my body to run right now. Grrrrrrrrrr. What to do, What to do.
Maybe just shoot for Friday and Saturday, and hope I am feeling up to it by then?but I know it is best to rest a day in between, and that would put me running three days in a row to stay on track, because my 4th week SHOULD start on Sunday. Grrrr. Grrrr. Grrrrr.
I know, maybe I will just wake up tomorrow with all the snot out of my stuffy head, and feeling all better. Maybe I will just have more energy when I wake up in the morning, than ever. Maybe I will just do my 5K tomorrow and skip all this "training". Who needs it anyway?
O.K... apparently I am delusional. so I better get to BED!